Novel Bin Ch190.2 - To Acknowledge the Bandit As One’s Father! (2)
Chapter Ch190.2 - To Acknowledge the Bandit As One’s Father! (2)
Translated by Eve
Edited by Serefina
Half a month later, Xie He took advantage of Hall’s lapse of attention and went to a hotel with a gun. He had a few channels of information and had received news that Liang Chengshan would appear here today.
Xie He stood watch outside, tightly gazing in the direction of the hotel. He waited several hours before he caught sight of Liang Chengshan coming out.
Liang Chengshan still looked as gentle and refined as ever. He had bodyguards with him. He looked like he was about to leave the hotel.
Xie He walked over with large strides, gun held tightly in his hand. But he was discovered just as he got close! He didn’t care about himself. He directly opened fire at Liang Chengshan. He didn’t care if he were to die here today. He had to kill him!
Liang Chengshan also saw Xie He. His gaze narrowed and he didn’t hesitate to take the gun from his bodyguard. He shot the gun out of Xie He’s hand, rendering him unarmed.
He then said, “No need to pay him any attention. Let’s go.”
The bodyguards all recognized Xie He. They didn’t dare kill him. They listened to Liang Chengshan’s orders and quickly got into the car, driving away.
Xie He’s fingers trembled. They had nearly broken from the gunshot’s force just now. But that didn’t matter. What made him furious and pained was that...Liang Chengshan didn’t care that he had come to kill him! Despicable! He didn’t take him seriously at all!
Liang Chengshan thought that Xie He was so weak that he would be unable to pose any threat to him. So, in reality...Xie He didn’t even have the right to take him down with him, did he?
His assassination attempts had been reduced to jokes....He failed time and time again. And every time, Liang Chengshan had let him off.
He was like a dancing clown. Not only was he unable to hurt his enemy, the enemy even pitied him. Who needs his pity?!
Xie He’s chest was full of hatred. His actions just now had alarmed people. Very quickly, the police would arrive. He could only slip away.
Hall returned home that night. He had already been informed about what had occurred today. He looked at Xie He solemnly. “You went to see Liang Chengshan today.”
Xie He clenched his fist. He lowered his head, remaining silent.
Hall sighed and then sternly said, “I told you before, don’t meddle in his affairs. Do you know how dangerous your actions were today?! You could have been beaten to death by Liang Chengshan’s men or captured by the police. If it were to come to that, even I would be unable to help you. Did you want to die such a glory-less death, or did you want to be made into a criminal? If you continue acting like this, and something happens to you, how will I face your father?”
Xie He was silent for a long time. He looked up, at a loss. It seemed like he had finally wavered and fallen to despair. “Then what should I do...?”
Except for revenge, he couldn’t do anything else. He couldn’t lead a normal life anymore. There was only disguise, murder and hatred in his world....
Hall hugged Xie He and said, “You can go to work. Get a girlfriend. Lead a normal life. That’s what your father wished for you. He hid you and your mother because he didn’t want you to see the dark side of things. He wanted you to live a good life as a normal person. Do you understand?”
Xie He remained dazed for some time. Tears then slid down his cheeks. In the end, he said, “I’ll try.”
Xie He stopped looking for Liang Chengshan. He tried his best to put down his hatred, but the nightmares replayed in his mind every night. He would always be startled awake in the middle of the night. He couldn’t help but keep thinking of that man. He would recall that man’s embrace, how it felt when he would caress him. He would recall how it felt when the man was inside him...he would recall how much he hated him....
He could not forget.
How could he lay this hatred to rest...? He couldn’t do it....
He felt like he could not continue on like this. If he were to continue on this path of self-destruction, it would only disappoint the people who cared about him. But he hated that he was like this. It was so tortuous, being apart from Liang Chengshan. He both hated the older man and missed him....
Xie He suffered terribly. He began to secretly take large doses of sedatives to numb his mind, so that he wouldn’t think of that man.
【444：Host dada, what are you doing?! 】Couldn’t he calm down a bit? Did he always have to cause trouble? _(:зゝ∠)_
【Xie He：Hehe, Uncle Liang’s willpower is very high. If he says he won’t meddle with my life anymore, he’ll do just that. If I were to do as he wished and live a peaceful, happy life, what will I do about those 3 Favourability points? Faced with such a high level of difficulty, I have no choice but to keep making moves. If I don’t cause trouble, he won’t appear. Smile.JPG】
&#k3010;444&#kUU1J;O(&#k2229;_&#k2229;)O~&#k3011;He only appears or refrains from appearing according to your will. Mn, I’ve already gotten used to it. It’s fine as long as you’re happy.
&#k3010;Xie He&#kUU1J;He’ll very quickly find out that there will always be people in this world who won’t act as he wishes.&#k3011;
【Xie He：If I don’t act a bit crazy, then his eight months of ‘entertaining me’ will go to waste. 】
【444：......】
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Although Liang Chengshan stopped meddling in Xie He’s life, he didn’t completely disregard information pertaining to him. He would still listen to his subordinates’ reports at regular intervals.
Xie He had stopped coming to look for him during these last few months. It seemed like he had given up on killing him. Furthermore, Hall had arranged a job for him. He had not done anything noteworthy for a very long time. At best, they were trifling things. Liang Chengshan however, would always read over the reports many times. It was like he was addicted.
He couldn’t sleep at night. He would always see that the other side of the bed was empty, that the person he loved was not here anymore. Because the only thing he had been able to do was let go.
Liang Chengshan’s temple had gained many more white hairs.
Finally, one day, he told Bishop, “From now on, there’s no need to report Yang Ling’s activity to me.”
Knowing too much was not a good thing. He was afraid that he wouldn’t be able to bear it one day and would go disturb the other. He didn’t want to overestimate his willpower.
If he didn’t know...if he didn’t hear about him, if he didn’t ask about him...he should be able to let go.
Xie He spent a few days pleased and serene. But he had gotten bored of playing games and watching movies. He had watched too many movies and played too many games in this world. Furthermore, he had wasted more time than he had expected. He liked challenges, but he couldn’t tolerate low efficiency.
【Xie He：I’m feeling way too bored. I don’t like working. This fixed work that has no room for creativity is like torture for me. Only Uncle Liang can make me feel enthusiastic. He’s more fun to play with than games. 】
【444：......】
Today, Xie He got off work a bit later. His mental state wasn’t very stable. Because he had been using sedatives in the long term, his mood was unstable. His judgement was impaired. While walking, he suddenly pressed a hand against the wall, holding himself up. He felt uncomfortable.
A kind person passing by noticed that something was wrong with Xie He and tried to lend him a hand. He asked, “Are you okay?”
Xie He felt someone touch him from behind. Because he had been on guard for so much of his life, he instinctively grabbed that person’s hand and threw him onto the ground. Everything went fuzzy as he climbed onto this person and began to pummel him with his fists. He had to kill them! He had to kill them!
There were dangerous enemies all around him!
The passerby hadn’t expected that Xie He would suddenly attack. He was just an ordinary person so he was nowhere near a match for Xie He. He looked up at Xie He in alarm. Was this person insane?!
At this time, the patrolling officers rushed over to subdue Xie He. Xie He was extremely violent and couldn’t control himself. There was a lot of force behind his actions. He kicked one of the guards away. It took several officers to knock him out with much difficulty!
When Xie He woke up, he discovered that he was at the police station, hands handcuffed. Uncle Hall was standing in front of him, looking concerned.
Xie He recalled what he had done and looked at Hall, deep remorse in his eyes. “I’m sorry. I was impulsive.”
Hall said, “You beat a man and three officers in public. One of the officers suffered a severe injury. You’re being prosecuted. You might end up with a sentence.”
Xie He smiled and calmly said, “That’s only to be expected.”
Hall’s eyes were full of bitter remorse. “I went home and searched your room. I found a large amount of used sedatives under your bed. You didn’t get better, did you? Why didn’t you tell me?”
Xie He was silent.
Hall was deeply saddened. He wished he could have found out sooner. That way, this wouldn’t have happened to Xie He. But it was too late now. In the end, all he said was, “I won’t give up on you. I’ll do everything I can to get you out.”
Xie He suddenly looked up and said, “No. I committed a crime. I should be punished. You are a righteous man. I don’t want to make things difficult for you. I know that I’m dangerous.” He couldn’t live like a normal person anymore. He was a dangerous lunatic.
Hall angrily rebuked, “Then what do you want me to do? Give up on you?”
Xie He smiled. “If you want to help me, then send me to a psychiatric hospital.”
Hall said, “You’re insane.”
Xie He said, “Yes. I think I’ve already gone insane.”
Hall stood up, all of a sudden. “I won’t send you to a psychiatric hospital!”
Hall left the police station and began to think of a way to help Xie He with all his might. He was trying to lessen Xie He’s offense.
But Xie He, who was locked up without any sedatives, quickly became irritable and restless. He started a fight with the other prisoners and beat the others up, leaving them in a critical condition. He still wasn’t stable despite being subdued. He tried to hurt himself.
Hall felt helpless.
The doctor gave Xie He an examination and determined him to be mentally unsound. Rather than prison, a psychiatric hospital was more appropriate. He needed treatment.
In the end, Hall could only watch as Xie He was sent to a psychiatric hospital. In a blink of an eye, he seemed to age many years.
He had never regretted anything this much. He regretted not having stopped Xie He back then. This child had been ruined....
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Liang Chengshan had not inquired about Xie He’s affairs for a long time. Tonight, he was once again startled awake.
The next morning, Liang Chengshan came to the office and worked as usual. He was spending more and more time working. The fatigue lessened the amount of time he could spend reminiscing. Halfway through, he suddenly looked up and stared at the sofa in front of him....
When Xie He had been here, he liked to spend most of his time sitting here. When he had been willful, brash, obedient...all versions of him flashed through Liang Chengshan’s mind.
He had thought that he’d be able to suppress his thoughts as long as he didn’t hear about news regarding Xie He. But it had been no use.
Because this person had been engraved into his bones, his soul.
Even if he wasn’t by his side, he still lived in Liang Chengshan’s heart. He had unconsciously....
Liang Chengshan finally called Bishop over and asked, “How has...Yang Ling been?” He was a bit worried that Hall wasn’t taking good care of him.
Bishop didn’t think that Liang Chengshan would suddenly ask about Xie He. He very quickly went to inquire about him. When he came back, he looked a bit apprehensive and uneasy. This was because he knew that Liang Chengshan would not be happy to hear this news.
Liang Chengshan noticed Bishop’s expression. A bad feeling emerged in his chest. He stood up at once and asked in a heavy voice. “What happened to him?”
Bishop lowered his head and said, “Because he lost control and attacked a few officers, he was arrested three months ago.”
Liang Chengshan’s expression changed dramatically. “Which prison is he in?”
Bishop’s head hung even lower. “No. He’s not at a prison. Because his mental state was so unstable, they sent him to a psychiatric hospital.”
Liang Chengshan’s tall frame faltered. His gaze became unfocused as his voice shook. “What did you say?”
Bishop said, “He’s in a psychiatric hospital. He’s gone insane.”
Liang Chengshan suddenly rushed out. He had never lost control of himself like this. His steps were unsteady. He had run a far distance before he realized that he didn’t know where Xie He was. With a shaking voice, he asked, “What’s the address? No, come with me. Come with me right now!”
This was all his fault. How could he not pay Xie He any attention like that...? How could he leave him alone like that...?!
This was all his fault....
Because it was very far away, by the time Liang Chengshan arrived at the psychiatric hospital, it was already well into the afternoon. He came in with a lawyer, a secretary and the rest of his team. After some negotiations, he was finally able to go see Xie He.
Xie He was shut in a room, bound in a straitjacket. He was curled up in one corner, not moving.
The nurse explained, “This patient is very violent. His sleep quality is also terrible and he is prone to hurting himself. We could only come up with this to protect him.”
Liang Chengshan walked straight in and held Xie He in his arms.
Because Xie He hadn’t seen sunlight in so long, his skin was deathly pale. His face had thinned considerably as well. Liang Chengshan’s heart ached and his hands trembled slightly.
I’m sorry...I’m sorry...it’s all because of my carelessness....
It’s all my fault.
Don’t be scared...I won’t leave you here.
Liang Chengshan held Xie He tightly. He then reached out to undo the straps of the straitjacket. Always being forced to wear this must have not been comfortable.
The nurse was very nervous. She said, “You can’t undo that! Be careful, he’ll hit you....”
Before the nurse finished speaking, she was pulled away by Liang Chengshan’s secretary. The secretary could see that the Boss wasn’t in a good mood. It would be better not to let the boss hear such words.
Liang Chengshan carried Xie He in his arms and could feel that the young man had lost a lot of weight. He had probably taken his medication and was now sleeping. Liang Chengshan couldn’t bear to wake him and directly brought him to the bed, holding him in his arms. He gently caressed the other’s emaciated body, his voice quiet and soft. “It’s fine now...it’s fine now....”
Xie He slept very soundly in Liang Chengshan’s arms. He felt like he hadn’t slept this peacefully in a long, long time. To make him calm, those evil white-clothed people would always inject him with things and force him to take medication.
It was cold everywhere here. He couldn’t move either. It made him feel very uncomfortable.
But now, he felt like he was being held in a wide, warm embrace. He yearned for it. It was like being held by his father. He stretched out his limbs a bit and found that he was actually free. He was no longer trapped in that tight, restricting clothing....
Who was it beside him? Who was it that was able to make him feel peace and warmth? Who was it that was able to calm him down? Who was it that was a light in the darkness, shining towards him?
This person was completely different from those hateful people....
Xie He slowly opened his eyes and was faced with a very good-looking face. This man’s eyes were gentle, just like his embrace. This was the person he thought about all the time....
This was the person he had been waiting for all this time....
Xie He reached out to hug Liang Chengshan, anticipation and glee filling his eyes. His voice was hoarse. “Dad, you finally came to get me.”
The author has something to say:
President Xie: Dad.
Uncle Liang: I’ll call you Dad, OK?
Eve: So the chapter of this title is the literal meaning. The figurative meaning is ‘a complete betrayal’. But the literal meaning makes more sense with what happens in this chapter.
sere: oh boi gross